Another 6 months since the last post... and we're well into the second half of the year! I'm in my last year of IMU now, I can almost smell graduation HAHA.. It's been quite a journey, these past 6 months... It seems that 2009 is quite my year.. It's been filled with trials and tribulations, love, laughter, ups, downs, new people, new experiences, new lessons..
And yet I think I still remain the same, albeit a little bit more laidback and definitely wiser and more mature (if I may say so myself...!) It has hit me that whoa, pretty soon I'll be joining the working force, and the fact that I am mixing around more with people who are working has definitely helped open my eyes to a lot of things. Interacting with new people, talking with them, gaining knowledge from them has been great and I sure as hell hope that the lessons I learnt (and am still learning) will come in useful in times to come...
Yesterday, 14th August, marked the third month of me and a certain someone.. I don't wanna be splaying his name around, but if you have me on Facebook you'd probably know, cos we're basically plastered in each other's Facebook. I love the feeling I get when I'm with him, how warm he is, and how safe I feel. Happy happy :)
Semester 7 so far has been a breeze... Research is moving along, though it has to be said that a LOT of changes have been made regarding the research. I still haven't begun writing my thesis, because I am at a loss as to the proper title to put for my thesis... I still have another 1.5 months to go before the research officially ends and thesis writing begins so hopefully we'll get through that snag before then..
I have quit the gym! I initially quit because I was under the impression that I'd be uber busy with my research and I'd be in Seremban a lot (that's where my research is) but it turns out I spend very very little time in Seremban and a lot of time in someone's arms haha.. But it's good, and yes, I admit, I gained almost 5kg in the first 2 months I was with him, but that was because I had to adjust to how he ate, and eat with him, and eat his portions of the food (he is a pretty small eater, but one with big eyes! i.e he orders more than he can handle and I hate to waste, so you can see how it backfires...!) But now after 3 months I'm getting the hang of it. I just eat a lot of vegetables, and fruits (which he doesn't really like) while he eats his meals.. I still do occasionally steal bits of his food but mostly I control what I eat, and munch on fruits... I find apples really easy to handle, cos they work well hot or cold, and they're so portable! You don't need to peel any skin or anything, and really they can fill you up quite a bit.. Lots of water helps too, and so far I haven't had to starve or feel hungry. Actually, it's to the contrary.. I just make sure I eat a bit more for breakfast, then keep dinner really light, and drink lots of water.. But I still indulge in ice cream! We just bought two huge tubs of ice cream and we eat them while watching movies together in bed, with the candles on! :D
Anyhoos, the point is, to try and lose weight without gymming.. but I am trying to get as much physical activity as I can for example walking around more, doing housework, etc etc... Little little stuff that burns some calories, rather than just sitting in front of the laptop watching movies all day *cough cough*
So yes, things are good again, as per usual... Except for a couple of odd characters who really try so very hard to pour cold water on other people's happiness.. I hate how they condescend to you, and then when you lash back they try and make it sound like we're the petty ones... And the funny thing is, I'm not even flaunting anything in your face, I'm just wearing my heart on my sleeve, and writing what I want, and yet you take offence at that. How about you just focus on your own issues and leave mine alone? It wasn't even for your eyes, and yet you decide to butt in and create some stupid drama.. I have taken quite a bit from you, and the funny thing is I have been all but supportive of you, yet you continuously feel as though I am competing with you or something. I have better things to be doing, so please, enough. Because I don't want to create friction, and I don't want to tarnish the image that I have of you as someone wiser and more mature. Now I just feel like you're petty and it's like you don't want to see others happy, and that only you are allowed to be happy or something. Which is sick. Gah.
Ok enough negativity... For once in my life, my fridge is actually stocked full. I have meats, vegetables, fruits, canned food, dried foods, frozen foods, chips, chocolates, fruit juices, coca cola, to last me AGES, thanks to the boyfriend! It's quite maddening.. I am so tempted to eat so many different things, but logically I can't.. And then I also have to think about my waist (or its lack thereof haha) so for dinner tonight I'm thinking of steaming/boiling my kailan (they look horrendous!) and probably drizzling some kinda sauce on it.. I ran out of oyster sauce, and haven't stocked up so I dunno.. Or maybe I'll just eat it like that.. mmmm... NOT! I'm the kind of person who will eat whatever is going to rot first, rather than see it go to waste :D Makes sense, right? And I have no qualms about eating leftovers, though it's a strict NO-NO for the boyfriend.. He says if we ever get married *cough cough* he doesn't want leftovers in the house. That made my eyes pop! I mean heck, I'm the girl who will boil soup and drink it for the next 3 days!! And boil a huge pot of porridge and have it for the following X number of days until it finishes! *sigh* Feeding this one monster is gonna be a tough one... LOL.. But we're in the beginning stages, and I must say I am enjoying getting to know all his little perks and quirks and oddities (and vice versa!)
Right, back to dinner (tsk tsk tsk...I'm always digressing!) some kinda leafy vegetable and then fruits.. I already had my share of protein today.. Can't find any carbs I want to eat though so I'll figure that out later when he comes...
Alrighty, till next time then....! (ran out of things to say haha.. very flaky of late tsk tsk)
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Saturday, February 07, 2009
Updates!
I’m in a pretty good place right now. I vowed to embrace the new year and try and leave my baggage behind, and I think I have done alright, though I have been told that I might still be carrying some of that baggage around, but I assure you it’s only hand luggage, and a REALLY small one at that, too! I mean, at the end of the day you always expect to come away from an experience learning something new, gaining some knowledge and insight into the human psyche, and to hopefully come out alright, without too many dents and scars.
Today it hit me again that darn, quite a few people are reading my blog. And the bad thing is, I don't know who they are! That prompted me to re-read my posts lol. I have such a bad memory, I swear, and funnily enough when I read back, I realise that hey I was a pretty alright person back then. I would've quite liked myself back then too :D But it was good to re-read some stuff, made me see how I have actually really learnt some lessons and applied them, and how I have come to realise which certain people I can trust with my secrets, and who I should think twice first before divulging all my personal bits. I must say it can be quite difficult for me to not share, because I am that kinda person, I must tell people, and the worst part is when they decide to use that information against you, to threaten you. That's why I have decided to be the bigger person (though in other people's books it may just seem like I'm hiding and running, but hey, to each their own. At any given point in time, you have two paths, path A and B. You choose the one that is best for you AT THE MOMENT and if halfway down the road you realise it's got lions and monsters and flesh eating virus floating around, well you deal with it when you get to it). I have tried, and so far it seems to be okay. I am only hoping that all this doesn't come back to haunt me, though I am always thankful to have good parents who are always behind me, and who never gives up on me. *huggles* Thanks
Oh darn, so much for small hand luggage haha. But I am actually really happy. But then again I almost always am, so it doesn't make much of a difference. I have however realised that I'm much more of a smiler now, I smile to EVERYONE and I try and talk to everyone. There's this boy in Uni, I wanted to talk to him for a while and the other day I finally did! And it was really nice, it was short, but we talked. Lucky for me he's just as much of a talker and he gave me a quite lengthy response to my "How are things going with you at the moment?" I always like when people answer that properly, instead of good, good or fine. I have been guilty of such answers, but only because I believe the other side doesn't really want to know what REALLY is going on with you, that they are just asking for courtesy's sake. You know that kinda people, right. So mm.
Okay, so it's 2 months into 2009, and it's actually my year this year! The Ox year :D I normally am not much of a believer of the zodiacs n whatnot, but recently I met a few people who were quite into this, so I thought I might as well check, and hey it does kinda hold true a little bit, and hopefully the predictions come out alright.
I have just realised. This is an odd post. I don't really have anything to say, just that it's my birthday tomorrow! And that I'd like to think that I'm finally coming to a point where I do have an inkling about the person I am, the person I want to be, how I want to treat other people and behave in public, how I want other people to treat me and talk to me, and what I want to achieve. I was telling a friend that I feel like time is creeping up on me, and that I have done nothing! And he says that I'm still young (heehee he's in his 30s) and that I should start planning now, and try and carry out some of my plans as soon as possible. He feels just the same, and he's already 30plus! So yes I shall plan, and I shall hope it all happens.
I miss having a boyfriend. Not that particular one, but I just miss having someone to call my boyfriend, someone to cuddle, someone to sniff (I love smells), someone to call at night before you sleep, someone who thinks about you, someone who will layan all your little weird bits. I always believed I wasn't the kind of person who will place all my happiness and whatnot on a guy, and I actually still am that girl. I can be happy all on my own. The last time I felt happy today was walking down the streets of Bukit Bintang today, alone, with my MP3 player, and happy music and singing out loud. I must've been quite a sight, but ah, it was so nice. The weather was lovely, and there were loads of people about, I saw a very small diminutive sized person playing an instrument (darn the name eludes me at the moment) and I could see that the person had survived a fire or some sort, because his/her whole body was mottled and had healed burn marks. That got me all thankful again, but I felt that it was good that regardless of his/her injuries he/she was still at least doing something, and not feeling pity for him/herself. It's a good thing. And bloody hell I should learn from that!
My friends have been bugging me about what presents I want for my birthday, and this is one birthday where I am really not bothered about my present at all. They can give me nothing and that would be just fine. The fact that they're my friends, that's enough. And besides, I already have everything I want. I covet nothing, and I expect nothing. I just want kindness from people, and love, and friendship, and a listening ear or a nice manly shoulder *grins* I do get all that already, so like I said, there isn't really anything to want.
My grandmother passed away, and that again brought on another wave of sadness. Another one of my bouts where I went on and on about not leaving things too late, not leaving things unsaid, of doing things now, saying things now, letting people know you treasure them, show them affection, give them hugs, or a small gift or something you know they would like or require. The little bits can really make a difference, because it's the little bits that lets the other person know that you do listen, that you do care, and that you do have their interests at heart. The big grand gestures can sometimes be easy to achieve, but they sometimes don't hold as much as impact, you know?
Ok lah, I am done rambling. This is bad. I am jumbling up everything, just writing whatever I want, with no flow whatsoever :P Best be off then. Love yourself, now. Treat yourself with respect, and it'll all come. Mmm.
Today it hit me again that darn, quite a few people are reading my blog. And the bad thing is, I don't know who they are! That prompted me to re-read my posts lol. I have such a bad memory, I swear, and funnily enough when I read back, I realise that hey I was a pretty alright person back then. I would've quite liked myself back then too :D But it was good to re-read some stuff, made me see how I have actually really learnt some lessons and applied them, and how I have come to realise which certain people I can trust with my secrets, and who I should think twice first before divulging all my personal bits. I must say it can be quite difficult for me to not share, because I am that kinda person, I must tell people, and the worst part is when they decide to use that information against you, to threaten you. That's why I have decided to be the bigger person (though in other people's books it may just seem like I'm hiding and running, but hey, to each their own. At any given point in time, you have two paths, path A and B. You choose the one that is best for you AT THE MOMENT and if halfway down the road you realise it's got lions and monsters and flesh eating virus floating around, well you deal with it when you get to it). I have tried, and so far it seems to be okay. I am only hoping that all this doesn't come back to haunt me, though I am always thankful to have good parents who are always behind me, and who never gives up on me. *huggles* Thanks
Oh darn, so much for small hand luggage haha. But I am actually really happy. But then again I almost always am, so it doesn't make much of a difference. I have however realised that I'm much more of a smiler now, I smile to EVERYONE and I try and talk to everyone. There's this boy in Uni, I wanted to talk to him for a while and the other day I finally did! And it was really nice, it was short, but we talked. Lucky for me he's just as much of a talker and he gave me a quite lengthy response to my "How are things going with you at the moment?" I always like when people answer that properly, instead of good, good or fine. I have been guilty of such answers, but only because I believe the other side doesn't really want to know what REALLY is going on with you, that they are just asking for courtesy's sake. You know that kinda people, right. So mm.
Okay, so it's 2 months into 2009, and it's actually my year this year! The Ox year :D I normally am not much of a believer of the zodiacs n whatnot, but recently I met a few people who were quite into this, so I thought I might as well check, and hey it does kinda hold true a little bit, and hopefully the predictions come out alright.
I have just realised. This is an odd post. I don't really have anything to say, just that it's my birthday tomorrow! And that I'd like to think that I'm finally coming to a point where I do have an inkling about the person I am, the person I want to be, how I want to treat other people and behave in public, how I want other people to treat me and talk to me, and what I want to achieve. I was telling a friend that I feel like time is creeping up on me, and that I have done nothing! And he says that I'm still young (heehee he's in his 30s) and that I should start planning now, and try and carry out some of my plans as soon as possible. He feels just the same, and he's already 30plus! So yes I shall plan, and I shall hope it all happens.
I miss having a boyfriend. Not that particular one, but I just miss having someone to call my boyfriend, someone to cuddle, someone to sniff (I love smells), someone to call at night before you sleep, someone who thinks about you, someone who will layan all your little weird bits. I always believed I wasn't the kind of person who will place all my happiness and whatnot on a guy, and I actually still am that girl. I can be happy all on my own. The last time I felt happy today was walking down the streets of Bukit Bintang today, alone, with my MP3 player, and happy music and singing out loud. I must've been quite a sight, but ah, it was so nice. The weather was lovely, and there were loads of people about, I saw a very small diminutive sized person playing an instrument (darn the name eludes me at the moment) and I could see that the person had survived a fire or some sort, because his/her whole body was mottled and had healed burn marks. That got me all thankful again, but I felt that it was good that regardless of his/her injuries he/she was still at least doing something, and not feeling pity for him/herself. It's a good thing. And bloody hell I should learn from that!
My friends have been bugging me about what presents I want for my birthday, and this is one birthday where I am really not bothered about my present at all. They can give me nothing and that would be just fine. The fact that they're my friends, that's enough. And besides, I already have everything I want. I covet nothing, and I expect nothing. I just want kindness from people, and love, and friendship, and a listening ear or a nice manly shoulder *grins* I do get all that already, so like I said, there isn't really anything to want.
My grandmother passed away, and that again brought on another wave of sadness. Another one of my bouts where I went on and on about not leaving things too late, not leaving things unsaid, of doing things now, saying things now, letting people know you treasure them, show them affection, give them hugs, or a small gift or something you know they would like or require. The little bits can really make a difference, because it's the little bits that lets the other person know that you do listen, that you do care, and that you do have their interests at heart. The big grand gestures can sometimes be easy to achieve, but they sometimes don't hold as much as impact, you know?
Ok lah, I am done rambling. This is bad. I am jumbling up everything, just writing whatever I want, with no flow whatsoever :P Best be off then. Love yourself, now. Treat yourself with respect, and it'll all come. Mmm.
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Goodbye 2008, and all the baggage that came along with it. I'm sending you on a one way trip to the Bermuda Triangle. Be gone...!
Okay, so I may have been a little bit more enthusiastic than was warranted. I mean, I distinctly remember telling some friends I was looking forward to a new year with someone but that doesn't look like it's going to happen. It came, and then it passed, just as quickly.
My fault, I counted my eggs before they hatched. I put too high an expectation on him and on the relationship, and when it fell, it fell into a million pieces. Picking up the pieces doesn't seem very achievable. And so......
I shall be embracing 2009 with my arms wide open! With a couple of really good friends by my side, and of course my best friend (hehe), and maybe some booze along the way.
I'll be in my sixth semester, and I am psyched! I hope I'll be able to handle my studies better than I did in 2008. A lot about me changed in 2008, and I like the changes, I have enjoyed them immensely, but I know I gotta learn how to juggle things better. God damn, I KNOW I can do it, come on!
I cannot wait for 2009! I just gotta keep my mind focused on my goal. I know it's achievable, no sweat :D
Happy early new year, everyone. Always remember to love yourself.
My fault, I counted my eggs before they hatched. I put too high an expectation on him and on the relationship, and when it fell, it fell into a million pieces. Picking up the pieces doesn't seem very achievable. And so......
I shall be embracing 2009 with my arms wide open! With a couple of really good friends by my side, and of course my best friend (hehe), and maybe some booze along the way.
I'll be in my sixth semester, and I am psyched! I hope I'll be able to handle my studies better than I did in 2008. A lot about me changed in 2008, and I like the changes, I have enjoyed them immensely, but I know I gotta learn how to juggle things better. God damn, I KNOW I can do it, come on!
I cannot wait for 2009! I just gotta keep my mind focused on my goal. I know it's achievable, no sweat :D
Happy early new year, everyone. Always remember to love yourself.
Friday, December 26, 2008
Oh lies. Glorious lies.
I used to find it funny when I came across people who said that they never fully trust a man 100%. I thought it was silly, because I'm a person with a very trusting nature. I'm the kind of girl who will go out with a guy she only recently knows, alone, and trust that nothing bad will happen to her. Ok lah, I do bring my pepper spray and other paraphernalia for protection, but I still believe they are okay people.
But today I think I finally understand why it is that as women, we cannot fully trust a man.
I thought I was in love with someone who treasured me, respected me, was honest with me, and really wanted to be with me.
I thought I was the only person he loved, and that I was the one who was going to heal his heart that was broken by another girl.
I thought I had a real, concrete future with this guy.
I thought he was serious with me, that he didn't lie to me, that all his stories were true, and that he honestly wanted our relationship to work.
I thought wrong.
++++++++++++++++++++++++++
I do admit when I start getting suspicious, I can unearth a lot of shit. I may not have done it in the best way possible, but I did it nonetheless. I invaded his privacy, I doubted his word, and decided I was better off trusting my instincts.
And it paid off.
It hurts so bad to know that if I didn't actually confront him with all this, he would never have told me. Sure, NOW he says "I'll tell you later when I have settled everything" but REALLY??? OR ARE YOU JUST SAYING THIS BECAUSE IT'S CONVENIENT, BECAUSE YOU KNOW THAT THOSE WORDS COULD GET YOU OUT OF TROUBLE AND THAT WELL HEY, YOU'VE ALREADY BEEN FOUND OUT SO U MIGHT AS WELL JUST SAY SOMETHING TO COVER IT UP.
I don't know if I can ever trust you again. Little by little, the lies are now unraveling. I feel I don't know you at all.
I can't take this anymore at the moment. I'm going out to watch a movie. Alone. Because sometimes, most of the times, being alone is the best thing. Trust no one but yourself.
I used to think I was a trusting person. Now I wonder if this will make me into a cynical person. A person who will never fully trust someone else again. Who will erect walls so high, you will never, in a million years, get past them. Because I was once told by this guy that my walls are so high, that he finds it difficult to get past them. And so I let down my walls, and my guard just a little. And I get all this shit in my face. Wonderful.
So I don't know, if I will ever be that same girl. But this is definitely going to change things. So many, many things.
But today I think I finally understand why it is that as women, we cannot fully trust a man.
I thought I was in love with someone who treasured me, respected me, was honest with me, and really wanted to be with me.
I thought I was the only person he loved, and that I was the one who was going to heal his heart that was broken by another girl.
I thought I had a real, concrete future with this guy.
I thought he was serious with me, that he didn't lie to me, that all his stories were true, and that he honestly wanted our relationship to work.
I thought wrong.
++++++++++++++++++++++++++
I do admit when I start getting suspicious, I can unearth a lot of shit. I may not have done it in the best way possible, but I did it nonetheless. I invaded his privacy, I doubted his word, and decided I was better off trusting my instincts.
And it paid off.
It hurts so bad to know that if I didn't actually confront him with all this, he would never have told me. Sure, NOW he says "I'll tell you later when I have settled everything" but REALLY??? OR ARE YOU JUST SAYING THIS BECAUSE IT'S CONVENIENT, BECAUSE YOU KNOW THAT THOSE WORDS COULD GET YOU OUT OF TROUBLE AND THAT WELL HEY, YOU'VE ALREADY BEEN FOUND OUT SO U MIGHT AS WELL JUST SAY SOMETHING TO COVER IT UP.
I don't know if I can ever trust you again. Little by little, the lies are now unraveling. I feel I don't know you at all.
I can't take this anymore at the moment. I'm going out to watch a movie. Alone. Because sometimes, most of the times, being alone is the best thing. Trust no one but yourself.
I used to think I was a trusting person. Now I wonder if this will make me into a cynical person. A person who will never fully trust someone else again. Who will erect walls so high, you will never, in a million years, get past them. Because I was once told by this guy that my walls are so high, that he finds it difficult to get past them. And so I let down my walls, and my guard just a little. And I get all this shit in my face. Wonderful.
So I don't know, if I will ever be that same girl. But this is definitely going to change things. So many, many things.
Tuesday, December 09, 2008
The one about the boyfriend... + Happy Early 2 Month Anniversary!
It’s been so long! I always say that, don’t I haha. So much has been going on, I haven’t really had time to blog. Since the last time I updated, I have passed my Semester 5 exams, so here I come, Semester 6! Three more semesters and I’m officially done.
I still think about this semester as the one where I lost someone I cared deeply about, and also along the way managed to find love. It’s pretty hard to comprehend, sometimes, how things can be taken from you just like that, and then in other instances, you can gain something so wonderful. Heh.
So I’ve avoided having a boyfriend for quite a while now. I guess I was at the point where I was just having so much fun dating around, meeting new people, getting to know new people. And so when this guy asked to meet up, I thought it would be just another guy to hang out with, to get to know. A new friend.
Little did I know I would end up spending 14 hours with him! The night before he’d already come all the way from Klang to Bukit Jalil just to send me food, and we’d already spent a few hours talking outside the guard house. It was amazing that we would have so much to talk about in the few hours, but I enjoyed myself. And the burgers too *grins*.
The next day (the one where I spent 14 hours with him, and the day that Yi Jing still calls “Three Lakes Day!” hahaha) we met up for tea, and off we went to Mines. He picked me up at 4pm, and I remember I had to finish an assignment first. We were supposed to meet up at 3pm, but I managed to postpone it till 4pm. So we were at Mines, and we ended up at a coffeeshop, having coffee and tea overlooking a pretty nice view. The coffee shop was quiet, and it was a lovely day. It wasn’t too hot, and the weather was perfect for a lazy afternoon out.
And so we had tea, and we talked. And talked. And talked. It was amazing, and it still amazes me till today, how effortless talking to him was. I loved every minute of it. And so when my girls called me up to go out that night, I was really torn in two! On one hand I wanted to go out with them, and yet the urge to continue talking to this new friend was so great! So I ended up ditching my girls to spend time with him. I felt a little guilty, but just a little hehe. We spent almost 2 and a half hours talking at the coffeeshop, and then we took a quick walk, where we saw a lake. After that, we went to Mines Shopping Center. We had dinner and then watched a movie, where for the first time, I was introduced to the “White Sweater”. It has since become a possession of mine haha, one that I sleep in quite often. It’s comfortable and keeps me warm, sort of like he does :P
After the movie, I was still pretty reluctant to go home, and so we ended up driving to UniTen, his old uni. We walked and walked, and he showed me around Uniten. Again, the conversation just flowed. At this point we were still friends, so I was still talking to him as I would a close friend. It was also here that we saw the second lake. (I may be a bit fuzzy with the details, but this is what I remember in my head heh)
And then after that, after another few hours walking around, we got into the car and drove around again. And we ended up at Putrajaya. We sat beside a lake (the third one hehe), with the brightly lit bridge spanning across it. That was also where we had an ‘encounter’. Well, rather, YOU did. I was blissfully ignorant heehee. By the time we left, it was almost 3am. I remember you asking me if I wanted to go home, and I was so reluctant! I was enjoying your company so much, so I said I didn’t want to go home. And in the end we went and had dim sum at this shop in Old Klang Road.
That was only our first date! Well, technically it was. I’m not sure. But what I do remember, is how we could talk about everything under the sun and moon, literally! Haha. I’m sorry if over the course of the two months, sometimes the lines of communication has been a bit crappy. I admit I do sometimes tend to not tell you things, and then it just creates so many problems! But I do eventually tell you (though not under the best circumstances) and I guess the good thing about you is that you listen. And you make an effort. And it warms my heart to see you make an effort, and how you really do try.
I have loved getting to know you these past two months, getting to know how you don’t like chocolate, how you’re grumpy in the mornings, how you are protective over me, how you like to surprise me, how you always take care of me even though sometimes I make it hard for you to take care of me :P I love it all, baby. And I’m looking forward to getting to know you even further.
I love you very much, baby! XOXO!
On a final note...
I’m just really glad you’re in my life, baby. I really am learning so much just being with you, and you really make me happy, especially all the little things you do for me that makes me feel loved. I know the two months(well one more day to 2 months, if we’re being specific) have been rocky too, and I’m just glad we both find the relationship worth working for. I’m sorry for the times we’ve argued. I appreciate all the efforts you’re making for me and for us. I love you very much. I hope you know that! No one’s ever made me feel this way. It sounds like a cliché, to say that, because some people really do use the phrase “No one’s ever [insert action here]” too lightly. It’s not the case with you.
In the past, I’ve never gotten that close with my boyfriends. I’ve never opened up the way I’ve opened up with you, and it still surprises me that you’re willing to listen haha! :D Seeing you just makes everything else fade away, and being with you is even better.
Two months :D In other people’s worlds this is just baby steps, but to me it’s HUGE. *grins* I miss you already, even though I’ve just seen you about 3 hours ago...! <3
(I'm posting this a little early, and sorta declaring it our 2 month anniversary tho it isn't cos I don't think I'll have access to a computer on the 10th hehe)
I still think about this semester as the one where I lost someone I cared deeply about, and also along the way managed to find love. It’s pretty hard to comprehend, sometimes, how things can be taken from you just like that, and then in other instances, you can gain something so wonderful. Heh.
So I’ve avoided having a boyfriend for quite a while now. I guess I was at the point where I was just having so much fun dating around, meeting new people, getting to know new people. And so when this guy asked to meet up, I thought it would be just another guy to hang out with, to get to know. A new friend.
Little did I know I would end up spending 14 hours with him! The night before he’d already come all the way from Klang to Bukit Jalil just to send me food, and we’d already spent a few hours talking outside the guard house. It was amazing that we would have so much to talk about in the few hours, but I enjoyed myself. And the burgers too *grins*.
The next day (the one where I spent 14 hours with him, and the day that Yi Jing still calls “Three Lakes Day!” hahaha) we met up for tea, and off we went to Mines. He picked me up at 4pm, and I remember I had to finish an assignment first. We were supposed to meet up at 3pm, but I managed to postpone it till 4pm. So we were at Mines, and we ended up at a coffeeshop, having coffee and tea overlooking a pretty nice view. The coffee shop was quiet, and it was a lovely day. It wasn’t too hot, and the weather was perfect for a lazy afternoon out.
And so we had tea, and we talked. And talked. And talked. It was amazing, and it still amazes me till today, how effortless talking to him was. I loved every minute of it. And so when my girls called me up to go out that night, I was really torn in two! On one hand I wanted to go out with them, and yet the urge to continue talking to this new friend was so great! So I ended up ditching my girls to spend time with him. I felt a little guilty, but just a little hehe. We spent almost 2 and a half hours talking at the coffeeshop, and then we took a quick walk, where we saw a lake. After that, we went to Mines Shopping Center. We had dinner and then watched a movie, where for the first time, I was introduced to the “White Sweater”. It has since become a possession of mine haha, one that I sleep in quite often. It’s comfortable and keeps me warm, sort of like he does :P
After the movie, I was still pretty reluctant to go home, and so we ended up driving to UniTen, his old uni. We walked and walked, and he showed me around Uniten. Again, the conversation just flowed. At this point we were still friends, so I was still talking to him as I would a close friend. It was also here that we saw the second lake. (I may be a bit fuzzy with the details, but this is what I remember in my head heh)
And then after that, after another few hours walking around, we got into the car and drove around again. And we ended up at Putrajaya. We sat beside a lake (the third one hehe), with the brightly lit bridge spanning across it. That was also where we had an ‘encounter’. Well, rather, YOU did. I was blissfully ignorant heehee. By the time we left, it was almost 3am. I remember you asking me if I wanted to go home, and I was so reluctant! I was enjoying your company so much, so I said I didn’t want to go home. And in the end we went and had dim sum at this shop in Old Klang Road.
That was only our first date! Well, technically it was. I’m not sure. But what I do remember, is how we could talk about everything under the sun and moon, literally! Haha. I’m sorry if over the course of the two months, sometimes the lines of communication has been a bit crappy. I admit I do sometimes tend to not tell you things, and then it just creates so many problems! But I do eventually tell you (though not under the best circumstances) and I guess the good thing about you is that you listen. And you make an effort. And it warms my heart to see you make an effort, and how you really do try.
I have loved getting to know you these past two months, getting to know how you don’t like chocolate, how you’re grumpy in the mornings, how you are protective over me, how you like to surprise me, how you always take care of me even though sometimes I make it hard for you to take care of me :P I love it all, baby. And I’m looking forward to getting to know you even further.
I love you very much, baby! XOXO!
On a final note...
I’m just really glad you’re in my life, baby. I really am learning so much just being with you, and you really make me happy, especially all the little things you do for me that makes me feel loved. I know the two months(well one more day to 2 months, if we’re being specific) have been rocky too, and I’m just glad we both find the relationship worth working for. I’m sorry for the times we’ve argued. I appreciate all the efforts you’re making for me and for us. I love you very much. I hope you know that! No one’s ever made me feel this way. It sounds like a cliché, to say that, because some people really do use the phrase “No one’s ever [insert action here]” too lightly. It’s not the case with you.
In the past, I’ve never gotten that close with my boyfriends. I’ve never opened up the way I’ve opened up with you, and it still surprises me that you’re willing to listen haha! :D Seeing you just makes everything else fade away, and being with you is even better.
Two months :D In other people’s worlds this is just baby steps, but to me it’s HUGE. *grins* I miss you already, even though I’ve just seen you about 3 hours ago...! <3
(I'm posting this a little early, and sorta declaring it our 2 month anniversary tho it isn't cos I don't think I'll have access to a computer on the 10th hehe)
Saturday, November 01, 2008
Random thoughts...
I went out with a boy the other day. I’d only met him once before, and I thought hey he’s not bad looking, plus he had curly hair which is always a plus point heehee. So we went out the second time, and it was really fun. The conversation was good, we laughed, flirted a little, got a little tipsy, slow danced (that was a first for me!). But that’s not the point of this entry.
A couple of days later, I stumbled onto his blog, and in it, he mentioned that he had just recently broken up with, and I quote, “the most wonderful girl I’ve ever known”.
I’m not bothered by that statement personally, in relations to that guy, because to be really honest, I didn’t feel the spark, or the chemistry, or whatever you call it, with that particular guy.
But I am bothered by the fact that a guy (and I’m moving on from that one guy to ALL guys, in general) can say that about a girl. I don’t begrudge them that, they can say what they like, but imagine if you are dating a guy, and he tells you, “Oh, hey, guess what, I used to go out with the most wonderful girl I’ve ever known.” I mean, wow, that’ll definitely hit you pretty hard okay. I mean, immediately your mind will start racing, thinking shit, most wonderful girl ever, why why why? Why can’t I be the most wonderful girl ever, you know??
Basically it just got me thinking lah, if he’s already met the most wonderful girl ever, then where does that put you? I mean, you sure as hell are going to have a tough time trying to fill that other girls shoe, if you get what I mean. It sorta feels like, whatever you do, you’re going to somehow wonder in the back of your mind, if that other girl did it better (we’re assuming she did everything perfectly lah haha, hence the reason for her being given the “most wonderful girl ever” award heehee)
Of course, some people will argue, a guy will definitely NOT tell it to your face that he used to date the most wonderful girl ever. But if you ever did find out that bit of info, it’s definitely going to get permanently stuck into your brain! You’ll wonder how you compare to that girl, and of course you’ll wonder, what makes her so wonderful?
Granted, some people will say, beauty is in the eye of the beholder, that kinda crap. So in other words, other people may not see her wonderfull-ness but, since you are in love with her, hence all you see are the wonderful bits, you get what I mean? A case in point, I’m seeing someone exclusively now (and it’s really really new, in fact), and the fact of the matter is, I initially didn’t think he was all that good looking, but somehow after falling for him I actually think he’s cute! *grins* I wouldn’t go so far as to say he’s the most wonderful guy ever, though he is pretty wonderful. Why else would I have said yes to him and not to the others, right? (Though if we were debating technicalities, I was the one who actually brought up the topic of exclusivities, and of not dating other people, and of being in a relationship first heehee)
Anyhoos, this has been bugging me for a few days since the day I found out. I’ve just been thinking and thinking about it.
I guess in my heart of hearts, I too want to be “the most wonderful girl” someone has ever known. *sigh* It must feel great. To know that one single person out there thinks that highly of you, that you affected him in such a way (or rather, in so many ways) that he would say that about you.
I guess I feel a bit sad too that the guy I went out with (the first guy, from the beginning of the post) didn’t manage to continue being with that girl, that things had to fall apart. I mean, you already found the most wonderful girl ever, just seems sad that things couldn’t work out.
Ah yes, this just popped into my head. The main thing about uttering those words, is that you must MEAN them. And in the case of the guy that I was talking about, I think he meant them (yes seems quite presumptuous of me, considering I’ve only met him twice) but he did write it in his blog (which he doesn’t update often, and I think doesn’t get much readers teehee), he didn’t flaunt the fact, and he said those words only after they’d broke up (Now I wouldn’t know if he used the words while he was WITH her, but based on what I can see and deduce, he said those words after they broke up. And that makes it so much more meaningful. Because he didn’t use those words as ammunition to get back together or something. Instead, he said them, because he truly believed them. (wah talk about jumping to conclusions, but that’s my conclusion anyway haha. He might tell me differently if I ever ask him about this teehee). So the whole point of this paragraph is, if ever a person was to describe me as such, I’d only want to hear them if he truly, wholehearted, believed it. No point just using those words to, as they say, ‘sedapkan hati’ the other person, just to appease them and make them happy. If you don’t mean those words, don’t use them.
And I fully accept the fact that not many people will be described as such by another person in the course of their life. You don’t always get the chance to meet a person, fall in love with them, and find out they’re the most wonderful person ever. They can be wonderful, great, lovely, but EVER? Wow. That’s a big word to use, aye.
And yes, I am officially being a softie..! Hehe..
Oh well, back to the books. I needed to get this out, cos it was going ROUND AND ROUND MY HEAD lol. So it's out now, and I can concentrate. I hope. *crosses fingers*
A couple of days later, I stumbled onto his blog, and in it, he mentioned that he had just recently broken up with, and I quote, “the most wonderful girl I’ve ever known”.
I’m not bothered by that statement personally, in relations to that guy, because to be really honest, I didn’t feel the spark, or the chemistry, or whatever you call it, with that particular guy.
But I am bothered by the fact that a guy (and I’m moving on from that one guy to ALL guys, in general) can say that about a girl. I don’t begrudge them that, they can say what they like, but imagine if you are dating a guy, and he tells you, “Oh, hey, guess what, I used to go out with the most wonderful girl I’ve ever known.” I mean, wow, that’ll definitely hit you pretty hard okay. I mean, immediately your mind will start racing, thinking shit, most wonderful girl ever, why why why? Why can’t I be the most wonderful girl ever, you know??
Basically it just got me thinking lah, if he’s already met the most wonderful girl ever, then where does that put you? I mean, you sure as hell are going to have a tough time trying to fill that other girls shoe, if you get what I mean. It sorta feels like, whatever you do, you’re going to somehow wonder in the back of your mind, if that other girl did it better (we’re assuming she did everything perfectly lah haha, hence the reason for her being given the “most wonderful girl ever” award heehee)
Of course, some people will argue, a guy will definitely NOT tell it to your face that he used to date the most wonderful girl ever. But if you ever did find out that bit of info, it’s definitely going to get permanently stuck into your brain! You’ll wonder how you compare to that girl, and of course you’ll wonder, what makes her so wonderful?
Granted, some people will say, beauty is in the eye of the beholder, that kinda crap. So in other words, other people may not see her wonderfull-ness but, since you are in love with her, hence all you see are the wonderful bits, you get what I mean? A case in point, I’m seeing someone exclusively now (and it’s really really new, in fact), and the fact of the matter is, I initially didn’t think he was all that good looking, but somehow after falling for him I actually think he’s cute! *grins* I wouldn’t go so far as to say he’s the most wonderful guy ever, though he is pretty wonderful. Why else would I have said yes to him and not to the others, right? (Though if we were debating technicalities, I was the one who actually brought up the topic of exclusivities, and of not dating other people, and of being in a relationship first heehee)
Anyhoos, this has been bugging me for a few days since the day I found out. I’ve just been thinking and thinking about it.
I guess in my heart of hearts, I too want to be “the most wonderful girl” someone has ever known. *sigh* It must feel great. To know that one single person out there thinks that highly of you, that you affected him in such a way (or rather, in so many ways) that he would say that about you.
I guess I feel a bit sad too that the guy I went out with (the first guy, from the beginning of the post) didn’t manage to continue being with that girl, that things had to fall apart. I mean, you already found the most wonderful girl ever, just seems sad that things couldn’t work out.
Ah yes, this just popped into my head. The main thing about uttering those words, is that you must MEAN them. And in the case of the guy that I was talking about, I think he meant them (yes seems quite presumptuous of me, considering I’ve only met him twice) but he did write it in his blog (which he doesn’t update often, and I think doesn’t get much readers teehee), he didn’t flaunt the fact, and he said those words only after they’d broke up (Now I wouldn’t know if he used the words while he was WITH her, but based on what I can see and deduce, he said those words after they broke up. And that makes it so much more meaningful. Because he didn’t use those words as ammunition to get back together or something. Instead, he said them, because he truly believed them. (wah talk about jumping to conclusions, but that’s my conclusion anyway haha. He might tell me differently if I ever ask him about this teehee). So the whole point of this paragraph is, if ever a person was to describe me as such, I’d only want to hear them if he truly, wholehearted, believed it. No point just using those words to, as they say, ‘sedapkan hati’ the other person, just to appease them and make them happy. If you don’t mean those words, don’t use them.
And I fully accept the fact that not many people will be described as such by another person in the course of their life. You don’t always get the chance to meet a person, fall in love with them, and find out they’re the most wonderful person ever. They can be wonderful, great, lovely, but EVER? Wow. That’s a big word to use, aye.
And yes, I am officially being a softie..! Hehe..
Oh well, back to the books. I needed to get this out, cos it was going ROUND AND ROUND MY HEAD lol. So it's out now, and I can concentrate. I hope. *crosses fingers*
Wednesday, October 08, 2008
The yummiest burger I've ever eaten :D
Right so I am actually on my study break, but oh my lordy, I had the yummiest burger ever, and I prepared it all in less than 20 minutes heehee!
Ok technically it is a sandwich, since I used wholemeal bread..
It's not something I've made before, just decided to make it from stuff I have in the house.
So I started with three pieces of bread. I put mayonnaise on one side, and then buttered all the rest of the other sides.
Next, I placed a piece of cheese on the mayo side. Then I fried my Ramly Burger chicken patty and placed it on top of the cheese.
After that, I discarded some of the oil and fried an egg on low heat, cos I hate when my eggs get all brown and bubbly. I like them white and soft :D
I placed the egg on layer number 2 (the chicken patty is on layer number 1, see) and then I sprinkled some pepper on the egg.
Finally, the MAGIC INGREDIENT that really just made everythnig THAT MUCH YUMMIER!
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Brown Button Mushrooms! I got them at Carrefour yesterday, and it's a pretty big pack for only about RM4 plus. So I got about 4 pieces (they weren't all that big), sliced them up a little and then just fried them on low, and then high heat. No onion, no sauce no whatever. Just the mushrooms in oil.
Once that was done, I placed them on layer one (consisting of the chicken patty + cheese) but I placed it on the CHEESE, instead of the chicken, cos the cheese hadn't really melted as much, so I needed the heat from the mushrooms to melt it.
So my sandwich consisted of (I'm going by the layers here, just so you know how it was constructed teehee and so I'll remember next time how to make it for Khaliq :D)
1) Bread spread with mayo
2) mushroom
3) cheese
4) chicken patty
5) bread spread with butter
6) fried egg + some pepper and chilli sauce
7) bread spread with butter again.
OH it was GLORIOUS biting into that sandwich! It was so amazingly juicy! The cheese had melted, and the mushrooms had a bit of juice to it, so it was all melty and a bit gooey. And even though all I added was pepper (as in, no other sauces) the sandwich was FULL OF FLAVOUR!
Every bite was satisfying. I took about three or four bites and then I went OMG I SO NEED TO GET MY CAMERA FOR THIS! So no worries, there are photos! Hahaha..
Orgasmic indeed! I swear the brown button mushrooms made all the difference. They just have this distinctive flavour. And I think the whole sandwich came together in less than RM3. LOL.
Okay see, bread = 3 pieces from a loaf of I don't know, 15? It's a wholemeal one, so RM3 for the whole thing so I'm gonna say about 60sen for the 3 pieces lah.
Then egg, was 30 sen. (haha almost typed 30 sex there wuhu!)
The cheese, is maybe 60 to 70 sen, so let's leave it at 70 sen.
The chicken patty, I can't really remember, but I remember maybe paying RM5 or 6 for a pack of the ramly chicken patties haha. So 60 sen?
And the button mushrooms, there was a huge portion, I think I have 7 or 8 more portions left, so I'm assuming I used up about 50sen's worth.
So total
0.60 +
0.30 +
0.70 +
0.60 +
0.50
= RM2.70 HAHA. But it was just so good! Yummmmyyyyy and I'm so stuffed now teehee. Oh right, pictures!
Here you see the egg at the top, with the cheesey + mushroom-y layer at the bottom (I used the crust from the loaf of my whole meal bread, cos I like eating the crust hehe. And it was a new loaf :D Don't waste, see. haha)
Mmmm gooey melty cheese.
Here it's inverted,with the gooey cheese layer at the top and the fried egg at the bottom.
A close up shot, that ended up blurry. I was impatient lah, I wanted to eat! But that's bits of the mushroom sticking out heehee
And finally, the inside shot! I'm holding the piece of bread with the mayo spread, and underneath you can clearly see the mushrooms and the melted cheese, and trust me, the two tastes just meld and they taste wonderful. At some point, some of the juices leaked out from my sandwich, and it was a lovely brown-ish colour, and it was a mixture of the mushroom and cheese. Oh gosh SO GOOD.
I'm making this for Khaliq next time he comes around heehee.
Now I'm off to study! Study break is NOW. Less than four more weeks. I have my fridge all stocked up with food, so no worries in THAT department haha. Wish me luck! And stay happy, everyone!
Ok technically it is a sandwich, since I used wholemeal bread..
It's not something I've made before, just decided to make it from stuff I have in the house.
So I started with three pieces of bread. I put mayonnaise on one side, and then buttered all the rest of the other sides.
Next, I placed a piece of cheese on the mayo side. Then I fried my Ramly Burger chicken patty and placed it on top of the cheese.
After that, I discarded some of the oil and fried an egg on low heat, cos I hate when my eggs get all brown and bubbly. I like them white and soft :D
I placed the egg on layer number 2 (the chicken patty is on layer number 1, see) and then I sprinkled some pepper on the egg.
Finally, the MAGIC INGREDIENT that really just made everythnig THAT MUCH YUMMIER!
..
..
..
..
..
..
..
..
Brown Button Mushrooms! I got them at Carrefour yesterday, and it's a pretty big pack for only about RM4 plus. So I got about 4 pieces (they weren't all that big), sliced them up a little and then just fried them on low, and then high heat. No onion, no sauce no whatever. Just the mushrooms in oil.
Once that was done, I placed them on layer one (consisting of the chicken patty + cheese) but I placed it on the CHEESE, instead of the chicken, cos the cheese hadn't really melted as much, so I needed the heat from the mushrooms to melt it.
So my sandwich consisted of (I'm going by the layers here, just so you know how it was constructed teehee and so I'll remember next time how to make it for Khaliq :D)
1) Bread spread with mayo
2) mushroom
3) cheese
4) chicken patty
5) bread spread with butter
6) fried egg + some pepper and chilli sauce
7) bread spread with butter again.
OH it was GLORIOUS biting into that sandwich! It was so amazingly juicy! The cheese had melted, and the mushrooms had a bit of juice to it, so it was all melty and a bit gooey. And even though all I added was pepper (as in, no other sauces) the sandwich was FULL OF FLAVOUR!
Every bite was satisfying. I took about three or four bites and then I went OMG I SO NEED TO GET MY CAMERA FOR THIS! So no worries, there are photos! Hahaha..
Orgasmic indeed! I swear the brown button mushrooms made all the difference. They just have this distinctive flavour. And I think the whole sandwich came together in less than RM3. LOL.
Okay see, bread = 3 pieces from a loaf of I don't know, 15? It's a wholemeal one, so RM3 for the whole thing so I'm gonna say about 60sen for the 3 pieces lah.
Then egg, was 30 sen. (haha almost typed 30 sex there wuhu!)
The cheese, is maybe 60 to 70 sen, so let's leave it at 70 sen.
The chicken patty, I can't really remember, but I remember maybe paying RM5 or 6 for a pack of the ramly chicken patties haha. So 60 sen?
And the button mushrooms, there was a huge portion, I think I have 7 or 8 more portions left, so I'm assuming I used up about 50sen's worth.
So total
0.60 +
0.30 +
0.70 +
0.60 +
0.50
= RM2.70 HAHA. But it was just so good! Yummmmyyyyy and I'm so stuffed now teehee. Oh right, pictures!
Here you see the egg at the top, with the cheesey + mushroom-y layer at the bottom (I used the crust from the loaf of my whole meal bread, cos I like eating the crust hehe. And it was a new loaf :D Don't waste, see. haha)
Mmmm gooey melty cheese.
Here it's inverted,with the gooey cheese layer at the top and the fried egg at the bottom.
A close up shot, that ended up blurry. I was impatient lah, I wanted to eat! But that's bits of the mushroom sticking out heehee
And finally, the inside shot! I'm holding the piece of bread with the mayo spread, and underneath you can clearly see the mushrooms and the melted cheese, and trust me, the two tastes just meld and they taste wonderful. At some point, some of the juices leaked out from my sandwich, and it was a lovely brown-ish colour, and it was a mixture of the mushroom and cheese. Oh gosh SO GOOD.
I'm making this for Khaliq next time he comes around heehee.
Now I'm off to study! Study break is NOW. Less than four more weeks. I have my fridge all stocked up with food, so no worries in THAT department haha. Wish me luck! And stay happy, everyone!
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